low key

that's exactly how i want this winter break to be, extremely low key. i'm a few weeks from 21. to some people 21 one means a whole new world opening up to them, a world where bars and clubs can be hit up with glee, a birthday party of 21 shots in 24 hours, to me it's a signal that i really need to focus.

i think i've really been spreading myself thin for the past god knows how many years. spread thin among friends, spread thin with the things i like to do, spread thin with what i want to do with myself after school. i think i'll start off the new semester thusly:

return to nyc with long bastard ass indie kid disheveled hair. write more. climb more. swim more. goto concerts again more. meet more rockstars. try not to go out with 10 girls at the same time. immerse myself in the new york culture that seems to have been hidden to me in the past few years that i am starting to see glimpses of now, if only materialistically. there are a lot of cool people out there, there is a lot of cool stuff out there, i like cool stuff. wasn't that profound?

all of this before new years... i don't like to make resolutions, resolutions are meant to be broken, especially if they are as contrived as the new years' ones are. i can see it now, there is going to be a huge influx of people into dodge gym the first two weeks of school, you will never see the again, that is of course, until next year.

i wish people would paint things for me, i had forgotten how much i like art. not your typical museum art, but art that is created out of sheer impulse of the momment, i made an amazing collage for sydney before break, it was.... (redundancy is cool) amazing.

i might just be the most random person ever or maybe i just have undiagnosed ADD. then again i don't believe in add, i just believe there is always something more interesting somewhere else some time else (some time else sounds cool, i'm going to start using that more).

and to finish off the journal, these are my favorite websites of the past few days.

- Threadless t-shirts. everyone is an amazing piece of art work. the community driven creation of shirts is just a brilliant idea. thanks to amy for steering. http://www.threadless.com/?streetteam=isuperwang

-Medium Shoes. i'm going to find a pair of these www.mediumfootwear.com

-Royal magazine. absurdly awesome, Wired was the only magazine i used to care to read, it fulfilled everything dorky about me. now there is this for artsy fartsy me. www.theroyalmagazine.com

-SHoP architecture. interesting ex-CU:architecture students' firm. www.shoparc.com

PS.....
still doing research to write an article about 'liberal' bias in the media. topic focus; if it doesn't exist, why do so many people claim it does + conceptions of liberalism.

long journal on everything

merry christmas everyone, it just occurred to me that this journal is going to be read by very few people, but... i guess that's ok, because what is a journal in the end? it is something for myself. and now that i think about it it's probably going to be quite long because there are a few things on my mind.

the boring part comes first.

this past semester was the most difficult few months of my academic career. it was the first time where i've seriously thought that i wasn't going to pass a class. not just one class, but three were up in the air. the most serious of which, was posted to ssl this morning and... thankfully i somehow recovered from my record breaking lowest score on the first midterm of 16/100 ( i was EXTREMELY tired) to get by, but as of Christmas another two loom like spectres waiting to say, Stephen, you tried hard but... you just weren't good enough. Let's hope that doesn't happen. Suzie was crying on the side of lerner a few days ago, she 'failed' her japanese final, 'failing' meaning... she could possibly get a B. it impresses me a lot that people can still pull of straight A's. it was pretty easy in highschool, at least i thought so, I made 2 B's in highschool, one was a class I took over the summer that I didn't want to argue about and the other was taking Spanish 3 my first year of highschool. Now... SEAS has shed new light, I wish i had the leasure of getting mad at getting a B, now I hope to at least get a B, i've seen quite a few C's the last 3 years and they aren't going to stop coming. i think i'm a-ok though.

what's next...
finals finished on tuesday for me. we went out everynight until thursday. to tell you all the truth i've never been happier. i don't want to say that i like the friends i've made in college better than the ones from home, my dad says that the HS ones are the ones that will be there forever, but the truth is, they are the ones that are the most foreign to me now. For the first time in 5 semesters of Columbia, I think i've found friends that I can call good friends, friends that I can actually picture being there 10-15+ years down the road. Friends that will be standing there in dresses and tuxes if I ever walk down the aisle with big smiles on their faces, they are the best men and bridesmaids. but wouldn't you know it, matt is leaving for Madrid next semester, and as depressing as it is to see him go, i know it's going to be absolutely fucking amazing for him. I envy the cc kids that can take 12 credits abroad and just take in the sights and sounds of a completely different culture and worldview.

i'm glad the distance of dormitories didn't crush things this year, you know who is sticking with you when you don't recess into just being another facebook friend as soon as the year is over, you go home, you live somewhere new, and they discover a whole new group of people that they think are way cooler than you ever were.

but anyways, the weekend was amazing. i may have seen almost every girl i've ever been interested in at CU/barnard (well not all of them) and i just let them all... go. i knew they were there though, even if the semester of working my ass off did basically crush and spirit and energy i could put forth toward anything with the women. the semester parting of the matt, tim, and stephen squad was capped off, in what more bizarre finish than a mecca. a mecca that only in its absence of Neal patrick harris and other way more weird things, could have been the multiracial adventure known as harold and kumar goto white castle. we stumbled into a cab at 4 in the morning to white castle, dragging matt and tejal and then we feasted. as matt and tejal argued with the employees over the validity of not serving them english muffin egg sandwiches until 6am, tim and i began our quest, the Crave case.

within the hour, tim and i destroyed 30 hamburgers. this was after our earlier dinner of Deluxe's hamburgers with our crew + tim's brother and his accompanying hot girlfriend. may god strike me down, she was 16, nevermind, i'm shameless, she was hot.

more substantive:
i'd like to do some research over break and retype this part, because i think it is without a doubt worth looking into. michael moore and al franken find it absolutely ludicrous that people peg the mainstream media is having a incredibly blatant liberal bias.

to me, the gut reaction is, liberal bias? the only liberal bias that exists in the media is the fact that there are lots of letters and words on pages of newspapers and print ads.

i love wired magazine, i respect the readers who send letters to the editor, this one stood out when i was reading it today,

the September issue is an insult. I get plenty of left-wing propaganda free from the major media; I won't pay [you] to deliver more into my household. When resubscription time arrives, don't bother sending the bill- I won't be renewing. - Milton Woodham, Colorado Springs, Colorado.

If al franken, michael moore, and myself ALL think that the comment that the media is liberally biased is without a second thought, without a doubt completely and unquestionably stupid, then why is the statement so prevalent. sure we could make the case that GOP leaders force feed those talking points into people so much that people repeat it like a parrot. i am inclined to disagree, there must be something more to this. Why would so many people take offense to things in the major media and label it as liberally biased if it really was not so? that just seems to prevalent and common to be some kind of right-wing conspiracy. it has occurred to me recently that perhaps what i consider liberal is left from my conception of what the center to me is, the center being far left of normal americans. if this is so, then I think that there is a problem with America, at least in what or ideals as citizens of this nation are, the things we hold most important to us, the drive that keeps us going from day to day, there must be a cog in the gears.

I'm going to at this momment do a quick survey of the major headlines from some prominent internet websites.

msnbc.com
• Christmas in Iraq: Soldiers, celebrities help spread cheer among U.S. troops
• WP: U.S. lacked postwar plan, strategist says
• Tanker blast in Baghdad wounds 12 Iraqis
• Lawyer: Aziz won't testify against Saddam
• Bush calls service members to thank them
• Ukraine braces for presidential runoff | Video
• Saturn moon probe descends toward Titan

cnn.com
• Space probe on way to Saturn moon
• Tanker truck suicide bomb hits Baghdad | premium content Video
• Russian military tests top-of-the-line missile
• Aziz won't testify against Saddam | The face of Iraq
• Five killed by Vietnam War shell
• Abducted children returned to mother
• Fast-food worker rescues drive-thru customer
• Airman saves woman, son from river

nytimes.com
• Bitter Divisions Rife in Ukraine as Voting Nears
• Remembering the Dead and the Horror of Mosul
• Program Coaxes Hospitals to See Treatments Under Their Noses
• Spitzer, in a Shift, Will Yield Inquiries to U.S. Regulators

since it's christmas, i think we should look at the headlines on a different day since they will probably try to be cheery right now. i believe right now that the cause for accusation of left wing bias and the disbelief is created because Americans do not reside in the center. there are people like me who are very liberal, and there are many very conservatives folks out there, I think their conceptions of a mutual center is still too far to the right and vice versa.

in my eyes, conservative america has pinned the stories and themes that make newspapers sell, that bring large tv audiences as liberal bias. newspapers reach out to stories like the poor family that can't eat and can't have christmas gifts because of poverty, of AIDS victims that are suffering, this is not the newspaper presenting liberal bias, it's writing news that sells. i don't know where i'm going with this, but America has put too much faith in the validity of what institutions and people present them with as true. we live in an age where we are truly the fast food age, we want our information and we want it fast. we don't goto the library to read books written by experts of the age, we double click a firefox icon, a stylized blue 'e' and instantly we get a filtered version of exactly what someone wanted to give us, and guess what, we accept it. we don't want to look at the second search result, we want what's at the top of the page, and in our rush and haste, what's at the top is the only thing that counts, everything else is lost as a excess heap of 1's and 0's.

the end.

more racism?

On Thursday I was sitting in a classroom on the second floor of Mudd when someone walked by saying 'that fucking asshole' really loud. My solid state professor didn't even flinch and we continued with our final. Turns out it was Sasha talking to Christ Cheng.

Anyways, they were quoting from a piece written in the Columbia Asian Journal known as Tablet. The article in reference was titled 'Yellow boy starts a ruckus" or something like that. While I was eating lunch Sasha told me to look the article over... apparently it is starting the same racist sentiment amongst some people on campus in the same way the Fed cartoon did last year. I'd really like to know what people found so racist about this article... because if anything it was a commentary (albeit it didn't really do any interesting analysis) on how racism is still prevalent and can come from anyone given the right stimulus. The irony was the racism stemmed as a retaliation to other perceived racism.

Just wondering if anyone read it and what they thought. If this sparks another 'we are being silenced' protest, I'm going to have to protest the protest, because it's in my view illegitimate.

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i just reread "A yellowboy starts a ruckus" by peter kang. i knew there was something disturbing about this when i first read it, but it was so subtle in my quick reading that i completely missed it.

he begins the story with a kid asking another korean on the subway if he was Asian or Chinese.

ok whatever, and then Kang decides to shift to acknowledgement of his fellow Korean subway rider's puzzled look. He states it would have been bolder to call himself "american". this is a legitimate statement but one that i think has been taken out of context over the years, especially when people are asking about your ethnicity purely based on physical appearance, you know what they are asking.

In Kang's story what sets the korean kid off is when the black child asks 1. why he isn't chinese because he has "chinky" eyes and 2. if he has a small penis.

Like Mike said, there are a billion ways to go about dealing with this and the recounted action was absolutely not it.

Let me ask you something" he said to the boy, "I could never figure it out. What's the difference between a black person and a monkey?" This is the part when the entire train goes apeshit and tries to beat the fuck out of the korean guy.

What Kang was trying to do with his article was show that everyone can be racist when prompted. No shit. The stereotyping of asians as squinty eyes, small penises, "ain't never seen a chink like that, they usually quiet and don't speak english much". Kang tries to make himself seem like he is a third party objective arbitrator, "Was he racist? Who was more so? I couldn't quite figure it out".

The fact of the matter is, if you read this article and get the subleties, it is incredibly biased in favor of the Korean guy's racist remarks simply because it was retaliation. After a quote comparing Black people to monkey's a flashing light went off in my head saying that he should address that somewhere, because a statement like that is ABSOLUTELY ridiculous, especially given that it was in response to a little kid. What really hit me is that 1. the black people in this story are portrayed as a bunch of urban thug ass kids and ignorant and racist (maybe showing that racism is prevalent even in blacks) but all of the korean kids comments are addressed not through Kang, but through the responses of these 'ignorant' blacks.

What was actually addressed by the author? I was glad the Korean guy wasn't passive and wasn't afraid to reply when called a "chink". In fact, I was annoyed just because the little kid was so damn ignorant. What do they teach these kids at school anyways? No wonder rich white people always opt for taxis"

Mike has a problem with that last sentence. I have a bigger problem with the weight that Kang places on ignorant blacks. The blame is completely shifted to racism that is perpetuated by ignorance, where is the chastising of the korean guy, the older, wiser, nicely dressed intern whatchamahoosit, who should have known a lot better than to make his retaliatory remarks? where was it? instead Kang pats him on the back for standing up to a little kid who called him squinty eyed and small penised.

I didn't think this was a racist article at first, probably wasn't intended to be (just like the fed cartoon wasn't) but ... the subtleties dropped into the writing of Kang shows a lot. Way to be sublety racist when you are making a commentary against it.

some round about interviewing

My mother used to like the church, she also used to like the Reverend Billy Graham a lot. There have been a lot of things over the years that have eroded her connection to both and I find it suprising that more Americans have not had the same feeling of "hey that's not quite right...". Just skimming over a newsweek interview with Billy Graham's son Franklin also a reverend I believe, just shows you how someone who said something incredibly 'not -PC' is trying to maintain his integrity as a credible man and person of the faith, with all the toleration and moral attitude that you may expect from those that are tenets of organized religion.

Here are some quips I found rather... round about answers and contradictory. Does the rest of America not scratch their heads over this, or does religious doctrine and agreement just cause a mass head nod of agreement?

Newsweek:The president seemed to signal that he was OK with civil unions in the last weeks of the campaign. Is your objection to marriage as a word?

grahamThis was an issue that I think in this election where people finally said, “I’ve had it. I don’t want that agenda being forced and pushed and mandated on me.” You can’t legislate morality. A homosexual’s sins are no different than a heterosexual’s sins. If I go out tonight and I sleep with someone who’s not my wife, it’s just as great a sin as gay people [having sex]. Sin is sin.

*keep this answer in your head. interesting, 'the people finally said'. finally said what? civil unions and gay marriage hasn't exactly been pushed on america in all 50 states and is a super hot issue threatening to undermime the morality of america. he says you can't legislate morality, i believe the legislation was EXACTLY to legislate morality, why did we sign into law in probably 200% more states that gay marriage is ILLEGAL. then, he's right a sin is a sin, if you sleep with someone that's not your wife you are performing adultry. sin. must have missed a lesson in making analogies in middle school english, because adultry and gay sex have nothing to do with one another and doesn't even provide a semi coherent illustration of what he's trying to say, which is nothing anyways.

Newsweek:Some people have said that the evangelical community has a disproportionate amount of interest about what goes on people’s sex lives as opposed to spending more time fighting poverty, healing the sick, feeding the hungry and trying to do more that is in line with Jesus’ teachings.

grahamI don’t have an interest in what goes on in other people’s bedrooms. I think it’s a fascination by the media. When I go around with other Christian leaders, we don’t have those conversations, “Hey, Franklin, did you hear who’s sleeping with so-and-so?”

*for someone who just answered the question that he really cares about people sinning and sleeping with people other than their wives and gay sex, it's interesting that he says he has no interest in what's going in the bedrooms of america. he doesn't care about who's sleeping with so and so but apparently he cares about sodomy and gays making out. go figure. maybe i read the answer wrong.

Newsweek:You were quoted a couple years ago as calling Islam an “evil and wicked religion.” Would you care to revisit that comment?

grahamThose comments started a debate in this country. I don’t know what I can add to it. I respect the people of the Islamic faith that have come to this country. I have Muslim friends. But that doesn’t stop me from wanting to help them. That doesn’t stop me from loving them. I certainly don’t believe the way they believe, and they don’t believe the way I believe, either. That doesn’t make me dislike them, and I love them very much. I want to do all I can to help them. In Khartoum, we have been working for years in a mission in the south. I want to demonstrate to those Muslims that my love for them is sincere. I want them to know about God’s son, Jesus Christ. I want them to know but I certainly don’t want to force it on them. I would like some day for Muslims to know what Christians do.

*can you answer this in a more round about manner? no analysis necessary. cool he has muslim friends. he says he doesn't want to convert people but he wants them to know jesus,... which is converting people. ok.


Newsweek:Talk about AIDS if you would. What work do you see that needs doing in that arena?

grahamI’m a pilot. If I am up at altitude and I am sitting inside the airplane and I stick my head out, I’m not going to live very long. God didn’t create me to live at 40,000 feet. I go to the Caymans each year, and I like to scuba dive. If I put my nose just a millimeter under water and I don’t have a breathing apparatus on, I’m not going to live very long because God didn’t make me to live underwater. If we get outside of God’s perimeters, we are at risk. When we use sex outside of how God intended sex to be used, we are at risk. People have to be educated as to what these risks are. What [distributing] condoms says is: “If you use this the risk is now dealt with. So enjoy sex however you want to use it because you’ll be safe.” Wrong, you’re not safe. And the only way you can be safe is to use sex as God intended: between a man and a woman in a married relationship. That’s not a message that the world wants to hear.

*i just think this is rather silly.

Newsweek:Was Brown v. Board of Education a case of activist judges making their own law?

grahamI don’t know; I’m not familiar with it. Look, there’s a lot of good that takes place in this country every day. In spite of all our problems, I am pro-American. I am pro-Republican, I am pro-Democrat and I am even pro-a-few-of-those-Independents-we’ve-got-laying-around. We’ve got a great nation. But I do believe that the majority of people, people of Christian faith, are under attack. No question about it.

* wow. for such a high profile figure... i would have thought he'd be at least somewhat familiar with Brown vs. Board. Billy Graham's son has never been pro-democrat... at least not that i've ever seen, i randomly went to him and his dad when they came to jacksonville in 2000, definately heard a giagantic speech about how we should all vote republican and for Bush. Democrat values, whatever they were/are at the time, demonized. Why are these people the spokesman for a large majority of the population?

george w. bush, visionary? (*cough*)

In January of 2004, George W. Bush leveled with America in his State of the Union address. We were confronted by massive job loss, a rapidly increasing deficit, and the ever present specter of terrorism. I and 50% of the United States watched our televisions and listened to our radio, mocking the absurd cheerful 3rd grade painting of the nation that was complete with rainbows and butterfiles, that Bush painted around us. Little did we know, 11 months later, that he was right. He said the economy was going to get better, good people were working hard, it was hard work, and then a grim look came over his face.

The despair that was conveyed by his ruffled brow could only spell one thing. disaster.

To help children make right choices, they need good examples. Athletics play such an important role in our society, but, unfortunately, some in professional sports are not setting much of an example. The use of performance-enhancing drugs like steroids in baseball, football, and other sports is dangerous, and it sends the wrong message -- that there are shortcuts to accomplishment, and that performance is more important than character. So tonight I call on team owners, union representatives, coaches, and players to take the lead, to send the right signal, to get tough, and to get rid of steroids now. -January 2004- GWBUSH

How did he know? 11 months after he addressed the nation, how did he know that America would be faced with such a crisis that even legend Hank Aaron would turn his back and refuse to bring dignity to it? Amidst intelligence reform, and a growing death toll in Iraq, Barry Bonds "unknowingly" used steroids.

Today the Whitehouse spoke out, for once they saw the problem and attacked it with the ferocity that one would unleash upon Osama Bin Laden.

“The president believes it’s important for Major League Baseball management and the player’s union to act by taking strong steps to address the problem,” White House spokesman Scott McClellan said. “Professional baseball players are people our children look up to. Players who use drugs undermine the efforts of parents and coaches to send the right message to our children.”"

From MSNBC.comBaseball commissioner Bud Selig repeatedly has called for more frequent testing and harsher penalties for steroid use, stepping up the intensity following reports of grand jury testimony by sluggers Barry Bonds, Jason Giambi and Gary Sheffield.

It doesn't trouble America that CIA agents identities are revealed to the world. It doesn't trouble America that it is a given that private grand jury testimony is regularly leaked to the press. What troubles America, and it's nice that the president knows what we care about, is that 703 homeruns as of the end of 2004 season were aided by performance enhancing drugs. For shame, John Kerry should have tiraded about OJ Simpson and Ricky Williams, that could have pushed him over in Ohio and Florida.